I'll remember today. 14.10.10

I didnt go to school for 2 days alrdy. Thank god I didn't go school today as well if not I would have cried infront of my classmates if I saw the status changed. It was Bahar who called me & told me about it. I did text L & he confirmed it. I was really heartbroken but somehow I was a little relieve that it's her. Cause all this while I knew it will be her. A girl's instinct I guess. I don't know what makes him fall for her but I'm sure she's something. Ironically she's Ivan's ex classmate. Ivan told me that she's a nice a person. Good to know that.


I just saw THE post today & it was dated 1st Sept =/ I'm not sure if you are referring to me & viewing my blog since yours is private I'm not sure if its me you're referring to since I can't view the other post unless you invite me to. If it's true that it's me you are referring to, I want you to know that 'll let him go & shall move on so you guys can have a blissful r/s. I just never thought he'll move on SO fast. Guess he's the jerk. I don't blame you cos L really have the charm on girls. And I'm sorry I didn't get to see the post earlier (if it's for me btw). If I know that he's been hitting on you, I shall not blog so many things that might make you doubt him. I guess he no longer loves me so don't worry. And Please be nice to him alright :)

To Leonard Teh Hao Yi & Juyee Ong,

Congrats.


I still nicely offer if he wants to cab with me just now in the morning. Stupid me didn't see this coming today -.-

Seriously can anyone be as brainless as them? I guess these people just don't have any compassion for other people. The new you seems to attract lots of girls. You must be on cloud nine now. All the attention on you baby. Your 'just friends' will be your gf someday. Good luck with that. I just hope karma does not visit you anytime soon. For now, all I want is for you to enjoy what you have. Cos karma is a bitch when you are a bitch.

LEONARD TEH is SINGLE now. You girls can have him now :) hah.

Just to let you know, the reason why I actually did not want people to know that we dated again the other time & put our status as single because of those friends of yours. I know clearly they hated me & practically thought that I wasn't good enough for you. I do not want to tell you this because they are your friends & you will just think I'm overreacting. But you just don't know anything about them. I'm constantly judged & ridiculed if they know I'm your gf. And when I'm not, they gonna celebrate your freedom. I'm not expecting you to understand how I've felt all this while though.

My attempt of not bumping into L was going well till I turned around & saw him walking on the same path with me otw home. I had mixed feelings then. I was elated when I saw him right infront of my very eyes after so long but on the other hand, I was afraid. I'm afraid my presence will ruin his mood. I wanted to approach him to say hi & walk home together but the very moment I thought of just standing beside him once again made me cry. So I just went home. L look so cute just now. His hair got darker & I think he lost some weight. If only I could hug him again =/

As for sch, I rather not talk about it.

OMG ! School starts on TUES !!!!!!!!! SHIT !

I don't wish to see certain people around in school esp L because for sure he'll have some girl walking with him. Typical -.- I'm gonna look for weekend jobs soon once school starts. Hope my class is a good one. I'm gonna start losing more weight. Brisk walking evry Sun. I can't jog or run cause my back will hurt so brisk walking then. Why isn't dearest kaibigan in the same class as me ? :(

All I want is for you to put your hand into mine.

I love you.